I Found a Lump…

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Anna Kuperberg Photography

Last week I found a lump in my breast.  I remember in that moment of discovery, the feeling of my heart falling to my toes.  The first fear, of course – cancer.  The second fear – what about my husband, my kids?  And then my thoughts turned directly to God, saying, “Okay God, you’ve got my attention, I submit to your will.” And then peace.

I can’t deny that I didn’t worry.  The lump doubled in size in just two days.  Upon visit to our family doctor, we were hoping for news that it was a simple cyst, however upon initial examination my family doctor suspected it to be a mass of cells.  And fast growing cells are not a good thing.  A sweet friend of mine dropped this nugget of gold … “Worrying about something is not the same as praying about it”.  Thank you Jamie.

In those days of not knowing and waiting, though the hardest, they were also a gift.  Another good friend of mine, Delisa, told me “God will always fight FOR us.  It’s amazing to see how far He will go to get our attention!”  God had been pulling at my heart even before “the lump” but life has always been too busy for me to give him my full attention.  I am guilty of making my husband, my boys, my business, my work, the centre of my life for so long now. 

I proclaim to be a Christian, a follower of Christ, but I haven’t been spending time in devoted prayer each day.  I have not been reading the Bible and soaking up the Word and His promises for us.  I confess that I have not pursued my relationship with God with a passion that even comes close to the passion I have for my family and my work.

Isn’t it funny how sometimes we need to be brought to our knees to realize how little we can do on our own without the power of Christ in our lives?  It was in that moment of peace that I knew this wasn’t some sort of punishment or wrath for me ignoring God.  It was His Grace being shown to me, gently telling me, “Hey – I need your attention because I’m not done with you yet.”

In those days of waiting, God revealed his love even more deeply.  I realized that for my husband, my best friend of 21 years, 16 of those married, there was nothing he could do to show me he loved me more, because he’s just that good at it every single day.  Sorry ladies.  Truly, I married the best guy on earth.  ;o)

I also experienced the blessing of having family and friends around me who dropped everything to pray for me.  I’ve never really been one to ask for prayer… call me shy, or proud, or lazy or all three… but never again will I make that mistake.  I’ve always believed in the power of prayer, but perhaps from a distance or for other people.  Having now personally experienced and received the blessings of prayer, I will not hesitate to ask again!   

We are still waiting to hear definitive results, but it feels like God has given me a new life, a second chance, and for that I’m am overwhelmed with gratitude and a desire not to waste this gift.  We are thankful for those who have journeyed with us.  We look forward to what God has in store…. whatever that might be.

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“Wait patiently for the Lord.  Be brave and courageous.  Yes, wait patiently for the Lord”.  Ps 27:14

UPDATE:

We received the reports back from the biopsy and I never would have thought the words “NEGATIVE FOR MALIGNANCY” would sound so beautiful.

Over the past few days I received so many prayers.  THANK YOU FRIENDS!   I experienced blessings too numerous to count.  Going through this journey has allowed conversations that otherwise wouldn’t have happened and through these connections, I’ve also been given the opportunity to pray for people going through similar and more trying circumstances than mine.

Is it bad to say I wish I could have re-directed the prayers for my sake to people who need them more??  I’m glad it doesn’t work that way and that God doesn’t limit our prayers, just like He doesn’t limit His love.  My promise is to be dedicated in my words when I say I’ll pray for you.  Not just words easily typed on a keyboard (thanks Collins!)  I truly hope every person can experience the immeasurable power and blessing in receiving prayer placed in the hands of an all powerful and loving Father.

I know there will be times when God’s answer will not be what we hope for, and I hope for the courage and wisdom to share those experiences with you as we journey through them.

In Love, In Christ ~ Q

Anna Kuperberg Photography

46 Comments

  • Paul March 2, 2015 - 12:11 pm Reply

    My prayers are with you as well at this time. Thank you for your witness and vulnerability to share this!

    • Quin March 5, 2015 - 11:21 am Reply

      Thank you for taking the time Paul. So appreciated xo

  • Mathieu Louis-Seize March 2, 2015 - 12:38 pm Reply

    Hi Quinn and Dave,

    I also believe in the power of prayer. I am happy you have found peace, light and love in this situation. I have been through difficult times myself and know without a doubt that God has helped me through. I put my life in His hands and trust his Will. There is such a sense of peace that comes with embracing this. It is my promise to you that I will pray for you and your family. May God shine his light on you and may you live your lives in his life always.

    With love,

    Matt (and Ann)
    Green Tea Photography

    • Quin March 5, 2015 - 11:20 am Reply

      This is beautiful Mathieu and made me smile. Thank you so very much. Love to you and Ann!

  • Leon March 2, 2015 - 12:57 pm Reply

    My goodness lady… I’m at a total loss of words… Completely concerned, yet fully inspired. Big love from the Sandovals.

    • Quin March 5, 2015 - 11:19 am Reply

      Feeling the love Leon! Sending our love back to one of our fave families!!!

  • Tammy & Mark March 2, 2015 - 1:10 pm Reply

    Sending good thoughts your way Quinn.

    • Quin March 5, 2015 - 11:16 am Reply

      Thank you Tammy & Mark! Hugs to you guys xoxo

  • Nicholas Gonzalez March 2, 2015 - 1:32 pm Reply

    My prayers to you and your loving family.

    • Quin March 5, 2015 - 11:15 am Reply

      Thank you so much Nicholas!! xo

  • Rebecca Trask March 2, 2015 - 2:16 pm Reply

    Inspirational honesty. Praying for you guys!

    • Quin March 5, 2015 - 11:14 am Reply

      Really appreciate you Rebecca, thank you!

  • Christina March 2, 2015 - 2:32 pm Reply

    Wow – I’m thinking of you guys – you all will be in my prayers. You both are truly inspirational – too good to let go just yet.

    • Quin March 5, 2015 - 11:12 am Reply

      Christina, you’re too sweet. Can’t wait for y’all to visit! ;o)

  • Yvonne March 2, 2015 - 3:18 pm Reply

    Oh Quin….I don’t even know what to say. You know how much I love you, Dave and the boys. You all inspire me each day. I am praying for all of you. Please keep us all updated on everything. Love you! xo

    • Quin March 5, 2015 - 11:11 am Reply

      Yvonne, thank you from the bottom of my heart!! Love you girl!

  • Kenny Nakai March 2, 2015 - 4:07 pm Reply

    So sorry to hear- will be praying for you guys- I’m standing here at WPPI – your health and family first!

    • Quin March 5, 2015 - 11:10 am Reply

      Kenny! We’ve been thinking of you! Especially since visiting your bro foe eye-checkups a couple weeks ago. :o) Thank you so much and hope we can catch up with you and meet the little one!

      • Kenny Nakai March 5, 2015 - 2:24 pm Reply

        Thanks for the update! Praise God! May He be your intimate comforter and shepherd in new ways during this new chapter of your life-

  • Verna Pitts March 2, 2015 - 8:06 pm Reply

    Quinn,

    I am praying along with your community for peace and healing. I love reading how you are leaning on God. Peace and Joy to you, my friend.

    “Trust in the Lord with all your heart,
    and do not lean on your own understanding.
    In all your ways acknowledge him,
    and he will make straight your paths.”
    ~Proverbs 3: 5-6

    • Quin March 5, 2015 - 11:06 am Reply

      One of my favorite verses. Thank you for this Verna. We miss you!

  • Travis March 2, 2015 - 8:55 pm Reply

    Sending prayers up for you girl!

    • Quin March 5, 2015 - 11:03 am Reply

      Thank you Travis!! Received and answered :o)

  • Mark Wikkerink March 2, 2015 - 9:13 pm Reply

    Hey guys

    Just wanted to let you know that I am praying for you, that God will draw you into Him in this time of waiting, stress, and anxiousness!

    Mark

    • Quin March 5, 2015 - 11:02 am Reply

      Thank you sooo much Mark!

  • Camille March 2, 2015 - 9:52 pm Reply

    Praying for you, dear Quin.

    • Quin March 5, 2015 - 11:01 am Reply

      Camille! Your beautiful face from Vegas popped up on my fb feed – dang you guys are gorgeous! xo

  • Jessica Followell March 2, 2015 - 9:59 pm Reply

    sweet family- what a work God can do in our suffering and in our waiting. So encouraged by your focus filled with gratitude. It doesn’t mean you don’t hurt and wonder, it just means you hurt and wonder but trust anyway. Heart full of love and prayers for you.

    • Quin March 5, 2015 - 10:59 am Reply

      Jess, you have no idea what an inspiration and example of faith you all are to us. All our love back to you!

  • Marcos March 3, 2015 - 7:04 pm Reply

    We are praying for you here in Brazil. IT ‘S NOT What We want and deserve NEITHER That , He ‘s what we need to Be Happy , Today he gives you the Life !! cuz he is the author !!

    THE God bless !!
    ……………………………………………………………

    Estamos orando por vocês aqui do Brasil. Ele não da o que queremos e nem o que merecemos , Ele da aquilo que precisamos para ser Feliz, hoje ele te da a Vida!! pq ele é o Autor !!

    Deus os abençoe!!

    • Quin March 5, 2015 - 11:17 am Reply

      TRUTH!!! Awesome words Marcos!

  • Chad Pennington March 4, 2015 - 7:56 am Reply

    I was just listening to my bishop talk about God getting your attention until you say ” Yes God I hear you” – and your words really blessed me in how I view my family and work. Thank you for this.

    Quinn be blessed – this will just be a pure stepping stone, watch how he turns this around.

    I am praying for you and the FAM.

    PEACEEEEEEEEE

    • Quin March 5, 2015 - 10:57 am Reply

      Chad thank you for sharing. I love this.

  • Jamie March 4, 2015 - 9:00 am Reply

    Prayers from Savannah GA – We love you so much!!! Remember, through the storm – when those trees bend down for hours and hours, taking the rain, wind and constant pummeling – afterwards, those trees are found to have stronger roots. You are being made stronger, not weaker! You are loved!!!

    • Quin March 5, 2015 - 10:56 am Reply

      You are pure gold Jamie. xo

  • Jin Cho March 4, 2015 - 2:59 pm Reply

    POWERFUL!!! Prayers… I know you’ll kick ass whatever it might be.

    • Quin March 5, 2015 - 10:55 am Reply

      Haha, Love that Jin – thank you!

  • Erika March 5, 2015 - 11:25 am Reply

    Was thinking about you all weekend Quinn! So happy with the direction this journey is going for you!

    • Quin March 5, 2015 - 11:31 am Reply

      We were thinking about you guys too and feeling bummed we missed your awesome presentation in Vegas! Thanks for your love girl xo

  • Ruth Fung March 5, 2015 - 11:30 am Reply

    Amen! Praise the Lord! God loves to talk to us and we need to talk to him more often on our circumstances.

  • Terrilyn March 5, 2015 - 9:48 pm Reply

    Rejoicing with you over your new found GRACE! It is so true that in Him we can see what the world would see as negative, He intends to use it for our good and for His glory…ALWAYS. Psalm 119:68 says: “You are good and do good.” That is all He CAN do; it’s His nature. I love how you stated, “It was His Grace being shown to me…” It is all grace and His never failing, never ending love for us that keeps Him pursuing us. Thank you for sharing your story that we can praise Him with you.

    • Quin March 12, 2015 - 8:31 am Reply

      Terrilyn, Amen sister! Thank you for those encouraging words!

  • Muji March 12, 2015 - 12:24 am Reply

    Sending good vibes your way. Hope everything turns out okay 🙂

    • Quin March 12, 2015 - 8:33 am Reply

      Thank you Muji! Tests have come back clean, so thankful!

  • Katie O'Farrell April 4, 2015 - 9:13 pm Reply

    So much love to you and your family : )

    • Quin April 11, 2015 - 12:09 pm Reply

      Kate!! It’s been tooooooooo long! Miss you guys and sending our hugs xoxox

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